You'll notice that this was written two years ago.
Yes, it's absurd. It seems even more absurd to me now, that I have my own (temporary) classroom. One of my 17 year-old students asked me last week what we were supposed to do if a live shooter entered Edgewood High School. I said I didn't know, but that there was a recent email about maybe having another drill.
Then I looked at the closet in the back of my room. There's no way we could all fit in there. And my invincible, almost adult guys all talked about jumping out of my third-floor windows if someone came in with a gun.
Tell me again where the absurd part stops and real life starts.
Safe
A short play by Gwendolyn Rice
1/17/16
Scene. Mid-afternoon in suburbia. Dan and Ginny, both in their 30s, sit at the kitchen table of their home. She is a teacher and he has a middle management office job. They have been married for quite awhile and have one daughter, Angie. It is very unusual for them to both be home in the middle of the day. Sitting in the middle of the table is a handgun. Dan is trying to piece together the events of the day. Angie is visibly distraught.
Dan
(seething) What is this?
Ginny
Oh come on.
Dan
What is this?
Ginny
You think this is helping? After the-
Dan
Tell me what that is and what it is doing in my house.
Ginny
Well I can’t keep it at school anymore.
Dan
What the fuck-?
Ginny
It’s my gun. Obviously. Should we move on to other nouns?
Dan
Where did you get it?
Ginny
At a gun store.
Dan
A what?
Ginny
They exist honey. There’s lots of them.
Dan
I know that.
Ginny
The one over by the mall was having sale.
Dan
(incredulous)You have signed petitions. You have marched with me, with Angie in the stroller, against gun violence.
Ginny
Yes. I know. That was before.
Dan
And yet-
Ginny
Could we just not, I mean maybe tomorrow, but not right now-
Dan
Ginny? You know they’re going to have to fire you, right?
Ginny
We’ll see.
Dan
I mean, just from the way it looks
Ginny
Yeah, I get that.
Dan
There is a very clear policy about firearms for the entire school district-
Ginny
I actually helped write that policy.
Dan
In the wake of Newtown and Virginia Tech and Columbine and a hundred others incidents of gun violence in schools
Ginny
Yes, and there are live shooter drills. We do them once a semester. I was on the team that wrote the protocol for those too.
Dan
Where was it? Just in your desk drawer? Or in a filing cabinet or something?
Ginny
It was in a locked cabinet. Padlocked. There was one key and I had it with me at all times.
Dan
And you kept it loaded?
Ginny
Yes.
Dan
You had a loaded gun. In your classroom. With a bunch of first graders.
Ginny
Art teachers get all grades honey. I know you know that.
Dan
Do you even know how to fire a gun?
Ginny
Yes.
Dan
Yes?
Ginny
There was a class. I took a class. At a firing range.
Dan
When?
Ginny
Over the summer.
Dan
When?
Ginny
When I told you I was going to yoga.
Dan
Okay. (he sits down and holds his head)
Ginny
Are you finished?
Dan
Am I-?
Ginny
If you’re finished with the interrogation then we can talk like normal people. Normal married people.
Long pause.
Dan
Okay. Talk.
Ginny
Do you remember last spring when we had the in-service with the security experts?
Dan
No, but keep going.
Ginny
We had a whole day seminar about the new security system. The automatically locking doors and the bullet proof glass and the intercom codes and the strategies about where you and your kids should be in your room to have the greatest chance of survival if there’s a live shooter in the building.
Dan
Okay.
Ginny
And to reassure us all about how thorough this new system was, the security people had a teacher there to give us a testimonial. She taught high school English in Red Lake, Minnesota, and one day one of the students came to school with a gun after he shot his grandparents to death. Now this was back in 2005, so they didn’t have the drills and all the security options that we do now. She said it was a normal morning in April, but then just as she started her lecture on sonnets they heard a couple of shots fired and someone got on the PA to say there was an emergency situation and everyone should stay in their classrooms until help arrived.
Some of the kids started crying and this teacher didn’t have the faintest idea of what to do, but they could hear the gun shots getting closer to their classroom and then a couple of people screamed, but no police sirens. No ambulances. It was like they were all alone, trapped in a horror movie with this armed killer on the loose and nowhere to go. But there was a little closet in the back of her classroom where she kept copies of her books like To Kill a Mockingbird and Julius Caesar and Of Mice and Men. She told all her students to be very quick and very quiet and go into the closet. So they all jammed in there with the light off and nobody moved for, like, two hours.
She said she’d never felt so vulnerable, so helpless in her whole life. Just sitting there, waiting to see if they were going to be shot. I mean, if he found them. . . one clip, one spray of bullets and they’d all be dead.
And this teacher didn’t even open the door enough to peek out until the police announced an all clear on a megaphone. When she finally opened the closet door she saw two girls from her 6th hour creative writing class, dead. Bleeding in the hall outside her room. And she wondered what would have happened if it wasn’t for her quick thinking. And she vowed not to go back to school until the district had put in the latest security system so she knew that all her kids would be safe.
Dan
Honey, I know that must have been very hard to listen to, but-
Ginny
And then it dawned on me. (pause) I don’t have a closet. The art room isn’t set up like other classrooms. It’s all open. There’s windows and open shelves and there’s nowhere. . .there’s nowhere to hide.
Dan
But you have the new security system—
Ginny
They don’t work.
Dan
What-
Ginny
They don’t work. In Sandyhook, where all those little kids died, they had just upgraded their school’s security system. Like the week before. They had codes and they had drills and they had self locking doors and the guy shot his way through all of that and you know how the teachers in that school found out they were under attack? The principal ran into the hallway and shouted something right before she was shot in the chest.
Dan
Honey, have you talked to anybody about your . . .concerns?
Ginny
I don’t have a closet. The whole class can’t hide under my desk.
Dan
No, but-
Ginny
I can’t do my job if I don’t feel safe.
Dan
And I get that, but don’t you think getting a gun is . . .going in the wrong direction?
Ginny
I don’t know.
Dan
Even people who are well trained, who are armed, cops, soldiers, in an emergency situation like that there’s not enough time to react. And when the police arrive at a crime scene they don’t know that you’re one of the good guys.
Ginny
Do I look like one of the bad guys?
Dan
You do with a gun in your hand. (pause) So what happens now?
Ginny
I don’t know. I’ve been contacted by some lawyers.
Dan
From the teachers union?
Ginny
From the NRA.
Dan
Holy fucking Christ, are you kidding me?
Ginny
Who do you think is going to stand up for me in this situation?
Dan
Of course. What was I thinking?
Ginny
I don’t want to lose my job.
Dan
I can think of a few million people who might not want you in a classroom anymore.
Ginny
Are you one of them?
(pause. Dan says nothing.)
Ginny
(fighting back tears) I can’t just sit there and watch my students get shot. I had to do something.
Dan
This is not the answer.
Ginny
Then what is? (long pause. She wipes her tears away and looks at her watch.) Okay, well I’m going to go check up on Carly.
Dan
Your student teacher?
Ginny
Yeah. She should be out of surgery by now.
Dan
(stares at her blankly)
Ginny
(matter of fact-ly) She shouldn’t have come up behind me like that.
fin